Bern-Dawg

BORED

Wed, 02 Apr 2003 08:10:25 GMT

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
01 | Rejection
02 | Birds
03 | Heights
THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
01 | Shawn
02 | Joey
03 | James
THREE THINGS I LOVE:
01 | Sleeping
02 | Writing
03 | Soft Batch Cookies
THREE THINGS I HATE:
01 | Being lied to
02 | Being ignored
03 | People feeling sorry for me
THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
01 | People
02 | Myself
03 | Change
THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:
01 | CD player
02 | Picture of me and Shawn
03 | My cell phone charger
THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:
01 | Watching some crazy cartoon Earlie found
02 | Typing
03 | Wishing I were in bed
THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
01 | Fall in love
02 | Jump out of an airplane
03 | Become a writer
THREE THINGS I CAN DO:
01 | Write
02 | Listen
03 | Keep my damn mouth shut
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
01 | Insecure
02 | Cautious
03 | Caring
THREE THINGS I CAN'T DO:
01 | Be positive for myself
02 | Math
03 | Sit for long periods of time
THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 | yourself
02 | So Unusual by Jason Mraz
03 | Your true friends
THREE THINGS I DON'T THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
01 | People who think they know everything
02 | Celine Dion
03 | Voices in your head
THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
01 | Damn
02 | AH HA HA
03 | I need a cigarette
THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:
01 | Steak Sandwiches
02 | Cheeseburgers from Jollys
03 | Soft Batch Cookies
THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
01 | To play the guitar
02 | Who I really am
03 | Why people can’t be themselves around certain people
THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:
01 | Dr. Pepper
02 | Snapple Apple
03 | Strawberry Milk
THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:
01 | Fraggle Rock
02 | Saved By The Bell
03 | Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
RANDOM QUESTIONS..
[ x ] Spell your name backwards: einreB
[ x ] How did you get your live journal name? Screen Name
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily – Earrings and sometimes a thumb ring
[ x ] Pillow cover - PLAID
[ x ] Blanket - PLAID
[ x ] Underwear – PLAID boxers
[ x ] Favorite shirt – My shirt I got from Shawn for Christmas
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume – Hugo this month
[ x ] CD in stereo right now – Jason Mraz
[ x ] Tattoos – Thinking about it J
[ x ] Piercings – Industrial, and both lobes
[ x ] What you are wearing now – Pajama pants and a hoodie
[ x ] In my mouth – Nothing
[ x ] In my head – Way too much
[ x ] Wishing – to know what the hell to think
[ x ] After this - Bed
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now – umm.. Joey, Shawn or Leigh Ann
[ x ] Is next to you - Earlie
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies – Dead Poets Society
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month – THE LAST MONTH OF SCHOOL
[ x ] The last thing you ate – Nestle Crunch Bar with Caramel
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of – Birds
[ x ] Do you believe in love – Yeah, but it doesn’t seem to be working out for me
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates – In a weird sense yes
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - YUP
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - Yup
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die – CREMATE ME!
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up – ALL NIGHT
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - Yup
[ x ] What are some of your favorite candies – Heath Bars, Sprees, and Peanut Butter M&Ms
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand – Me
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - Me

BORED

Tue, 04 Mar 2003 09:09:01 GMT

1. Name and Nicknames: Bernard Francis (Berno, Bern-Dawg, Red, Big Bern, Bernalicious)
2. Birth Date: May 23rd, take note of that
3. Location: Bowling Green right now
4. School: Good Old, BGS(TD)U
5. Hobbies: I am lazy
6. Eye Color: Green
7. Height: 5’11
8. Shoe Size: 11
9. Favorite Color: Orange
10. Favorite Song: So Unusual…Jason Mraz
11. Favorite Book: The Catcher in the Rye
12. Favorite Vacation Spot: Anywhere but Bowling Green is vacation
13. Absolute One Best Friend : grrr…Joey Schneider
14. Best Friend of the Opposite Sex: Leigh Ann Boggess
15. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Nobody
16. Crush: Ha! I am not telling
17. Things you like in the opposite sex: Hands, Nose, and Ears
18. When was the last time you kissed someone: Oh shit, that is too sad to say
19. Most romantic thing a person has ever said to you: Nobody has really said anything romantic to me.
20. Funniest thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex: I am not even going to go there.
21. Top three best friends: Joey Schneider, Shawn Donohoue, and James Moerlein
22. Quality looked for in a friend: Trust, Honesty, and Humor
23. Fondest memory of you and a friend: The one time Shawn said he would never lie to me and when he was finished eating he said he was not lying…guess you had to be there.
24. Scariest thing that's ever happened to you: My Wreck
27. Favorite place to eat: Steak Escape at School, and The Outback when I am home
28. Food you hate: I hate fruit
29. Weirdest food you like: Milk and Pepsi, but its not really a food
30. Dumbest thing you've done: Dumbest thing…I really want to pick something out…I CAN’T THOUGH! Somebody comment on this one….
31. The one person who knows the most about you: Shawn Donohoue, but Joey is learnin…ha ha
32. Favorite movie: Dead Poets Society.
33. Nicest thing someone has done for you: Probably when Shawn drove up to BG and only stayed an hour just to see me….(when the drive was 2 and a half hours, and he got a ticket too).
34. Best advice given to you: Never take it too seriously
35. Favorite Quote: “Don’t play the end” Manet told me that one….
36. One thing you hope to do before you die: Find someone
37. Your personality type: Humorous, Trusting, Honest, and Trustworthy.
38. Favorite singer: Dave Matthews Band
39. Favorite holiday: Easter
40. Favorite season: Fall
41. Favorite summer activity: Driving in the country
42. Favorite winter activity: Snowball fights
43. What do you want to be when you grow up: Eh, a teacher this week.
44. Funniest people you know: everyone I know is very funny
45. Favorite conversation topic: Whatever comes up
46. Favorite sport: Soccer
47. Favorite magazine: I don’t read
48. Favorite toothpaste: Mentadent
49. Favorite Candy: Today it is Chewy Sprees
50. Favorite Store: Abercrombie
51. Favorite thing to wear to work: Ah ha, this thing thinks I actually work
52. Favorite thing to sleep in: pajama pants and a hoodie
53. Biggest fear: Rejection
54. Favorite inside jokes: ANYTHING me and Joey talk about.
57. Thing you're picked on the most for: How slow I really am
58. Favorite words: GRR…DAH…DAG
59. Thing you say way too much: I am hungry
60. Favorite ice cream flavor: Butter Pecan…I eat so much of it, it makes me sick
61. Favorite soda: Wild Cherry Pepsi
62. One place you want to go right now: To Joey’s
63. Time and date: March 4th, 3:59 am
64. What did you do today: Got up, woke up Max, went to Theatre at 9:30, came back, walked downtown to get an earring, came back to the dorm, went to eat with Megan, came back again, hung out with Max, beat up Stacey with Max, went to English, came back and slept for 2 hours, went to a Study Session with Amber at 8:30-10, then came back and hung out with max some more.
65. What college do you want to go to: Well I am at BG now
66. Person you admire most: My parents and my friend Patrick
67. Thing you most regret: Won’t go into that.
68. Number of pairs of shoes you own: 7
69. Your theme song: BIA BIA
70. Color of your bedroom: Navy Blue
71. Size of your bed: Twin
72. Last time you showered: sometime today
73. last person you called: Well I have become VERY VERY good friends with Joeys voicemail
74. Last thing you had to drink: Gatorade
75. What's the weather like: Dark and freakin cold as hell
76. Last book you read by choice: It wasn’t really a book, it was a long article about Cinderella and its true meanings…don’t ask, it was for a class, I didn’t HAVE to read it though.
77. Last show you watched on TV: Tom and Jerry
79. Color socks you're wearing: White
80. Silliest thing you've said: TODAY WAS A GREAT DAY FOR THAT
82. Thing you actually want to be doing right now: Be asleep, but I have a midterm tomorrow I am supposed to be studying for.

I AM SO BORED AND COLD

Sun, 16 Feb 2003 22:52:48 GMT

Oh why not? I haven't done one of these things in forever!

10 celebrities you'd gladly have sex with
1. Sandra Bullock...DUH!!!
2. Rebecca Gayheart
3. Sarah Michelle Gellar
4. Rebecca Stamos
5. Ashley Judd
6. Jewel
7. Denise Richards
8. Jennifer Aniston
9. Lisa Kudrow
10. Estelle Getty from the Golden Girls....not really, she is just really cute though...

9 songs you love
1. Dancing Nancies- Dave
2. Why Do You Build Me Up (Buttercup Baby)
3. So Unusual-Jason Mraz
4. Adam's Song- Blink 182
5. Wonderful Tonight- Eric Clapton
6. Shower The People- James Taylor
7. Keep on Dancin- No Doubt
8. Gossip- Missy Elliot
9. Free Bird- Lynard Skynard

8 things you love to do
1. Sleep
2. Come home
3. Talk to my best bud on the phone when I get really homesick
4. Sit outside and talk to Max
5. Go to Shows...(BG does a good job!)
6. Perform in Shows...I miss it now!
7. Eat
8. Sit on the computer

7 people you've kissed
My sex life is so sad, I can't even remember people I have kissed! It is not 7 though, I can tell you that much.....

6 foods/drinks you adore
1. Chicken and rice
2. Pork Chops
3. Broccoli and Cheese
4. That Chicken Sandwhich from BK
5. Steak Sandwhiches
6. Snapple Grapeade

8 best friends you've had (or currently have) * I had to add some...sorry**
1. Joey Schneider
2. Shawn Donohoue
3. Chris Keefer
4. Erin Jones
5. Beth and Gaby...those two go together...
6. Molly Estridge
7. Patrick Hawley
8. James Moerlein

4 words you use too much
1. Eh, what are ya gonna do
2. Well duh...
3. Har har har
4. Fuck

3 Favorite Colors
1. PLAID!
2. Baby Blue
3. Orange

2 places you like to be kissed
1. Nose
2. Lips

1 quote you live by
"Expectation is the root of all heartache"

Well scratch that last entry......

Tue, 11 Feb 2003 07:56:45 GMT

Ok, I didn't so much like that last entry. It was a little...well...SAD(so i deleted it :) ). Anyway, thats not how I feel all the time, I think I should have made that clear. I dunno, I was just having a really bad night. But I am very lucky, and shouldn't bitch about things. I have the best friend anyone could ask for, that I know I can count on all the time and that I miss more than anything, along with that, I also have my brother for life that I know is always there, and too, miss way too much. I also have many other friends that care about me so much, but its just hard to realize that sometimes when you are far away from all of them. I guess what I was trying to say through all that is I miss alot of you, and wish I was home. So I miss yo guys and can't wait for Spring Break to get here so I can see you all!

Just Random

Mon, 27 Jan 2003 09:41:40 GMT

So I haven't written in this for a LONG time, so I thought that this entry would just remind you all that college hasn't had a major effect on my brain....I AM STILL SOO SLOW...

Stacey: Bernie, I am going to buy you a hooker for your birthday...
What I heard and replied: You are going to bite me like a hooker on her birthday???!

---So then Colleen and Stacey go to my room to get a movie for us to watch after the Super Bowl. The conversation when they got back went something like this...

Stacey: Why do boys smell so bad?
Me: I dunno, we just do. My room didn't stink though did it?
Stacey: No, it was actually ok.
Colleen: Your whole floor smells though.
Me: Why were you on my floor?
Colleen: Yeah Bernie, I was rolling around on your floor sniffing it.
Me: WHY?
Stacey: Shut up Bernie, she was saying your floor in general smells funny.
Me: I knew that??

---And yet another dumb remark made by me occurred when Kevin and I were standing in the hall talking about the other night:

Kevin: I went to Uptown last night, and I saw that hot girl thats in our EDHD class gettin on some other girl.
Me: Well there is nothing wrong with that.
Kevin: I know, I never said there was. We talked, and hung out, and she introduced me to her girlfriend. We had a good time.
Me: Well shit, why don't you ask her to go out with you sometime?
Kevin: Are you slow today or something?
Me: No why?

~ Yeah, I wasn't too bright the other day. Oh well, thought that would make some of you laugh. I miss everyone, and will be home soon.

Well hey

Wed, 18 Dec 2002 11:10:02 GMT

Its been a long time since I have felt this good. Been a really long time. Even though it is 6 in the morning and I have a final at 1:15 in which I know I will fail, I am feeling damn good about the world. I can't wait to get home and see all my friends, especially Shawn, Turnip Head, and Jamison. Those three have been keeping me sane as hell the past few weeks. Well, I will technically be home tomorrow, seeing as though it is Wed. Wish me luck on the finals, even though it is ALL going to suck!

Bleef and Bloff

Fri, 15 Nov 2002 08:43:57 GMT

Well, I am back to my writing in this thing. Probably won't do it again for a looonngg time, but I gotta blow some steam off and writing in this stupid thing just sounded fun. Well the fact it is almost 3:30 in the morning and I have an exam at 8:30 and 1:30 in which I have not studied for tomorrow really sucks. I had so much homework to do tonight as well, and things just built up to where I had one of those explosions some of you know about. Ya know, the ones where I say I don't feel like talking to anyone at all, but I really do, then nobody will talk to me because I said I don't want to talk, so it puts me in an even more bad mood. Ya, I had one of those tonight. Max was there to talk to me though, and really, I couldn't put my damn finger on what was bothering me so much. I mean the whole homework thing of course, but at the same time, I know there was something more. Every one of you that reads this knows me well enough to know that I am usually very open with what is the matter with me, but here, I don't open up all the way. That could be part of what is bothering me. The fact that I miss people so much too, just is getting to me. I hate not being able to TALK to Shawn. If there is one person out there that understands me the most it is him. Joey is starting to get up there too. Sarah, shit, if I didn't talk to her anymore, I wouldn't have a head. But its like I am losing contact with so many other people it just kills me.
Here things are ok. I mean, I am doing well in school, I have made a great new friend that ranks right up there with everyone else, and then I have also met some people that just tick me off. It is like, we are in college now, grow up. No matter where you go there is always going to be drama, and what I went through in high school with everyone, one would figure I would be ok with that, but I am seriously steering clear of everything I possibly can.
People here aren't like the people I am used to (except for the whole drama deal). Here, I feel like I am worthless, and that I am just a fuck up in everyone's mind. They all act like they are so mature when they really aren't. They can dish it out, but when I call it on them, or fight back, its let the waterworks or I wanna go homes fly. I am so sick of hearing that. I may not be the happiest I have ever been in my life here, but damn it, this is growing up, and face the facts. I am not going to punk out on a situation that is going to do some damn good for me. If you look hard enough, you can make the best of every situation. Hell, if I didn't come here, I would be stuck at home in 13th grade at Miami Hamilton, still pissin and moanin about wanting to get out of Hamilton. If I hadn't come here, I would still be a spoiled little brat that got everything I wanted, and just sat on my ass all day. If I hadn't come here I wouldn't have made a new friend that hopefully will last a lifetime. I have had so many great experiences here good and bad, that I wouldn't trade for the world. They are all making me a stronger person. I am learning alot about myself here. Seriously, if it wasn't for the friendship I have with Max here, I would probably go insane. Its good to have ONE person that is down to earth. Its like I am becoming much more honest in every situation. I mean, I never used to tell people when they really pissed me off...hell, he can say hi to me, and I can tell him he is pissin me off and he doesn't twist it into anything that it shouldn't be. That is what a good friendship is. Here though, I can't seem to find too many people like that. I think he said it best when he said, its like a sugar coated friendship with a smile...or something like that, i never pay attention to him anyway...ha ha.
I dunno...I want to come home, but its not going to happen. I do like it here, and after writing all this, I got a lot of shit off my mind. Its like, if you aren't happy here, leave, because I don't want to hear your shit. Now that doesn't apply to some people, but it applies to most..(these people being the ones that talk about it EVERY DAMN DAY!, or just seem so pissed off to be here--the semester is ending soon...bye!) Wow, I am getting angry again, and that needs to stop. Ok, time to get off, go take a smoke break with the front desk chica, and then go study. This has been a nice venting session. Talk to you all soon.

HEY HEY

Fri, 06 Sep 2002 03:41:45 GMT

DO YOU MISS ME YET????? HA HA~ I WILL BE HOME SOON! I LOVE COLLEGE, AND YES I DID GET MY TOUNGE DONE! SHHH DON'T TELL THE PARENTS...LOVE YA ALL....MORE LATER
BERNIE

WHERE IN HELL DID MONDAY GO?!

Tue, 20 Aug 2002 06:09:07 GMT

I swear, it is now TUESDAY, and I don't even know what happened to Monday. Time is flying, I have so much to do, and the one thing I really want to do, I can't. I just want to cry. For many reasons. I can't even think right. I just got done bitching to Sarah about everything, and at the time, I was better, but now, I am just a mess again. Its times like this I just want to break down. I can't though. I am the strong one. It won't happen. If I cry, my mom will cry, if I cry, my friends will cry, and I can't do it. I have to be strong. I have always been the strong one. There is nothing wrong with that. I have pulled off the past few days VERY well, not even thinking about crying till I am alone. I almost broke down on the phone with Sarah, but I couldn't. I wouldn't let myself, but I know she heard the tears coming. Its crazy. I just want to be at school, with everything ok. Thats all, but the next 4-5 days are gonna be hell.
Bernie

Its late

Sun, 18 Aug 2002 08:29:00 GMT

So, I just got done talking to good ol' Chuck (aka Charlotte, the sexy mama) and she probably thinks I am insane, but who could blame her. I think I started blabbin on and on about majoring in pissing people off, because I seem to do that so well when I don't mean too....prime example, Joey...EVERYONE THINKS I AM AN ASS BEFORE THEY GET TO KNOW ME, AND SOMEHOW I PISS THEM OFF! Oh well, there is a reason for that. So anyway, we were talking about college, then I just started thinking to myself, what I want to do with the rest of my life, and I am still drawing a blank. This week, its been Psychology again, but at the same time, I still want to be an English Professor when I get around 50. I still also want to be a TV anchor, so who knows, maybe one day I will be on TV, or maybe you will be laying on my couch spilling your guts for 200 bucks an hour (somehow that sounds appealing). I don't know, its late and I am blabbing again, so yeah. Its now a final count of 6 days. I am going to miss my buds. Love ya....NITE...
Bern

PISSED OFF

Sat, 17 Aug 2002 04:46:11 GMT

So, yeah, you want to know what really bothers me? Fake people. I am just saying this b/c I had the WORST freaking conversation with one of my friends that I thought was a pretty good person, it was just so, stupid. I don't know, its really hard to explain, but it's just like I was blown off by him, and it pisses me off. Its stupid. We were pretty close for awhile, then suddenly, we started talking less, and now it has resulted into nothing. I know that isn't the definition of fake, but thats how it feels to me....Oh, and Ben, since I just talked to you, don't think its you....I dunno, this is one of the reasons I don't trust too many people, and it takes ALOT for me to trust people. Its stupid I know, but I am now pissed off. Other than that, things are going, I move in now in 1 week, and I can't wait! Everyone else seems to be happy at Miami, so it makes me want to move more!
THATS ALL,
BERNIE

Just because...

Tue, 13 Aug 2002 15:18:53 GMT

Top 20 memories of the summer...2002

20. Nights with Andrew and Ben

19. Kili and Sarah

18. The fireworks with Lisa and Trina

17. The day of my graduation party/thank God she is gone party.

16. The day I found out my roommate's name and called Carrie right away.

15. My ALL FREAKIN NIGHT conversation with James

14. Carrie's Graduation Party

13. Going to Goldstar with Shawn at only 12am and all the interesting workers there who seemed to love cheese.

12. The day my mom just blurted out she knew I smoked.

11. Ben's house

10. Shawn and his T.V Guide issues

9. The day my niece somewhat learned to say my name, and the fact she yells it and says no right after.

8. Revue practice

7. My all night conversation with Joey Schneider

6. Sarah and her late night comments that made no sense

5. Bitching to Sarah, and her bitching to me.

4. The day Shawn told me he would never lie to me, and when he finished eating he said he was done and he "was not lying"

3. Devan

2. Graduation

1. Making new friends.

..**THE SOON TO BE NUMBER ONE~ GETTING THE HELL OUTTA HAMILTON!

Cha Cha Cha

Fri, 09 Aug 2002 05:46:45 GMT

I don't know what that title was about but anyway....So, I have been in a bad mood lately. Probably because I don't sleep too much anymore b/c I am getting excited/nervous about leaving for college. Oh well! People have been making me smile the past few days, and some of those smiles have come from unexpected people. Shawn has been killing me just b/c he is soooo stupid. Sarah has been making me laugh by her "unexplained statements" at the odd hours of the night, and even Joey KILLED ME the other night. I am still laughing about the answer he gave me to a certain question about things in general.
I am pretty excited about the show. It actually came together tonight, which was quite a shock! Its fun though, and we've had fun doing it. Who knows if I will do anymore shows...but I have had fun doing all the ones I have.(that sentence sounds odd...oh well!)
Shawn leaves tomorrow for vacation, and that kinda makes me sad. He comes back 5 days before I leave, which leaves NO TIME for us to hang out. Damn that pissy. Sarah leaves too...why are all these people leaving before I do?! GRRR I want to hang out with everyone these last FEW weeks. I FINALLY talked to Erin though, my other best friend in the whole world, and we are hanging out soon. Might even actually hang out with Chris Keefer before I leave too. Its amazing how many friends just pop up out of nowhere when they know they won't see you for awhile.
Anyway, I guess I am done. I know my entries are boring, but oh well, I felt like writing something. Hope everyone comes to see the show this weekend. I am out.
Bern

I LIKE CHEESE

Mon, 05 Aug 2002 05:53:50 GMT

So, that was the topic of Saturday night after me and Shawn went to Goldstar only to be rudely told that we could only carry out our food, which we were planning to do regardless. Anyway, this unpleasant woman had her hands in this big thing of cheese just playing with it, so of course I had to speak up and say something rude "excuse me, I don't want to eat food that was touched by your nasty hands"...yeah not a good idea..she was a beast, so we left, and as we walked out I yelled, I LIKE CHEESE!, in this obnoxious voice and I think I got the finger. OH WELL! Good times with old Shawn. Then the idiot ditched me to go to his brothers, so I went out with Steve and Lisa. ENOUGH SAID! Lisa and her two x boys out for a night of fun=a bad idea on her half! Oh well.
I keep getting mixed emotions about leaving. I am really excited to get the heck outta here and make a change, but at the same time, I wish I could stay right where I am. I dunno, its gonna be hard to say good-bye. There are a few people I don't want to see before I leave, because that is going to make it 10 million times harder to go, but, I gotta do it.
So to keep jumping around with my random thoughts, I talked to Sarah tonight for a while, and I gotta say I love that girl. I can seriously say anything to her and she understands, and I understand her. She is so down to earth. We have our usual bitch sessions that I do love, b/c it lets me and her blow off alot of steam! I am going to miss those a lot when I leave! AHH! I just talked about missing things again! Gotta stop.
So anyway, I dunno what more to go on about. Things are going good. I am tired though, so I might as well go to bed b/c I have to go by costumes tomorrow for practice (yeah, shouldn't have put that off!)

Something I just thought of~~

Fri, 02 Aug 2002 05:51:10 GMT

YOU KNOW WHO I MISS??! SARAH JACKSON...where the hell has she been?

I want to date a transexual

Fri, 02 Aug 2002 05:30:42 GMT

No No No, I didn't say that, but Miss Sarah Chrupka did....or in some context like that..I dunno, just goes to show how crazy talks can be when you are on an outing with Sarah and Kili. So tonight was fun, it started off with this HOT straight haired girl coming my way, and to my surprise it was Kilian, who just somehow decided to be in the revue a week before it opens! Oh well, gotta love Kili. Then practice was interesting, but fun, and afterward, Kili and I decide to go play, and invite Sarah along, although, Sarah didn't quite join us for awhile, but that is another story of its own! Fun times though. We kinda had some interesting discussions while we just sat at, ah hell I can't spell the place, but ya know..where that Big Boy guy is~~yeah that place...anyway, good times. Made me realize how much I miss those two crazy girls. Then as we leave our freakin waiter says we didn't pay our check and this "attractive" woman comes out and apologizes to us. Oh well, crazy freaks! The we proceeded to pull all the duct tape off my car. Then I come home to find Pissy is nowhere to be found...hmmmm?? All in all it was a good night. 22 MORE DAYS TILL I GET THE HELL OUTTA HERE! Oh well, I am tired now, so off to bed hopefully!

I am not trying to piss anyone off but......

Wed, 31 Jul 2002 20:28:58 GMT

So ok, its time to get everything out in the open about how I feel about things. I know I am completely setting myself up to be bitched at, but right now I really don't care anymore. So, on the subject of friends....I don't know. Its the summer before I leave for college. Usually that means that you hang out with the friends that have meant something to you over the course of your high school career. I have been doing that too, hanging out with Shawn alot more than usual, hanging out with Devan and James, (but I always feel like a 3rd wheel with them), being stupid with Gaby, talking to Bablew alot more, and being mad at Andrew (but thats just a different story, not that I don't love the boy). I totally miss hanging out with Erin, but at least we still know what is going on in each others lives. Me and Ashley have become like best buds again after a few years of nothing, and me and Steph have started pissin each other off again and having fun! Its like so great that I have become friends with people that have meant something to me in the past all over again. But at the same time its like, what happened to some of those friends that I was so close to? I hardly see Beth anymore, and its just like I don't exist when she is around. Who the heck is Ben anymore? I don't know, I hate it. Don't think I am playing bash encore like Andrew does, because that is far from the point, because I love Sarah, and we talk all the time, and its not just encore people I miss. I miss Lindsey Farley, Sally, Sarah, even Chris for crying out loud. Its mean to say, but its come to the point that I am like, well, I probably won't see them before I leave really, so why does it matter? It just doesn't seem like they care. All I ever get out of Ben is a "are you mad at me", and I say, "well I am mad we haven't hung out over the summer, but that is in the past" thinking that things are going to change, and well, they don't. Not to be mean Ben, but me saying its in the past doesn't make it all right. Same goes for you too Beef (don't think i am bashing you two b/c I am not, I would mention everyone else I said I miss, but like they read L.J's) In no way do I hate you, this is just to let you know how much I miss you guys. I don't know, do what you want, b/c its not like I sit and wait for your call, I do have a life, but I want everyone I have mentioned to be some part of it before I leave, if thats what they want. I dunno, I guess I am done, and with that I should say, let the bitching begin. (and I know I haven't done alot on my part, but this is the start of me trying, and it may sound mean, but thats how I feel!)

P.S I think the lovely miss ridell will be proud of me! I do love that sexy beast!

THIS IS FOR TRINA

Tue, 09 Jul 2002 00:51:08 GMT

HMM don't really care to go into details about my life at this point. Seems wasteful. Leaving for orientation tomorrow..should be fun. ~~I do love katrina and lisa....oh yeah....sorry i forgot to tell you trina...friday ok??? I won't be back until Wednesday night.~~ Ah well.... I MISS SARAH CUPCAKE! Seems everyone of my friends has a great life otherwise...I AM NOT BITCHING THOUGH! I HAVE BEEN HAVING A BLAST! Love the beautiful miss ridell..other than that, i am done with this entry....thought people would like to know i am still alive...COUGH COUGH...sorry..... BYE
P.S....Gaby, don't do anything i wouldn't while i am gone ;)

Haven't updated in awhile, I know, but this is sooooooo right!

Wed, 06 Mar 2002 18:07:50 GMT

Mmm, I am Lemon Flavoured.

I am bitter and twisted. Expect from me acerbic humour and sharp commentary. While I may seem nasty at first, I'm actually quite good company if I like you, so long as you don't mind a bit of cutting to the chase. What Flavour Are You?

So yeah

Sun, 17 Feb 2002 01:23:37 GMT

Life has been very interesting lately. I have noticed how lonely I am, but maybe thats because Valentine's day just passed. I have NEVER had a Valentine, well a real one, Charolette (I think I just killed her name) aka Chuck, was my Valentine this year, but really, I have never had a girlfriend this time of year (somehow me and Gaby through our many attempts slipped past all major holidays!) ~~I DON'T KNOW WHERE THAT JUST CAME FROM GABS ~~ Anyway, I dunno, things have been boring. School is school, life is life. Carrie and I have made up which makes me happy, and I am just waiting to go to college. College....please let it come soon. I know I will regret saying that when I get there, but I just want to give it a shot.
What else is up? I dunno. Things are just going. I have been talkin to Patrick alot lately, which is cool. I am really glad he is happy, he deserves it.
Last night was funny. Went to tha game with Leigh Ann, Tim, and Tara, and ended up going out with Molly and Carrie afterward. I FINALLY gave Molly her birthday present. I wrapped it in an unusually larger pair of underwear (long story) which later ended up on Alex and Megan's faces. Oh great times at BBC movie nights. Everyone seems to hate me more after the movie. Ah well, its just me.
OOOOOHH....I am sick and tired of people talkin crap behind my back, no matter what it is. Its not so much the seniors, its those obnoxious juniors and sophomores that think they are the shit (not saying that all underclassmen suck, but some do.) Anyway, I am about take out half the table that sits behind me and lunch..yeah, they are going to go down. Ah well, its ok, I am just me, and they are just stupid. Well, my pathetic life just got interesting, I am going to grab some food with J, so I gotta get. Man my life is boring today....anyway I am out.

I DO LOVE THIS

Thu, 14 Feb 2002 03:40:15 GMT

Love Me Not
created by callmemaeve.

ok so yeah

Wed, 13 Feb 2002 15:00:04 GMT

Ok, I am just sittin here in 3rd period (Mrs Spurlock's assistant), being very aggravated. Its not so much that I didn't get chosen to be on court for the King of Hearts crap (everyone knows I am an ass), but still, the fact that everyone on there is a bigger ass than me ticks me off. Brian Newton has to win now. It is my goal to make him win. Ok, I have something to do now, but ok, I will update when I get home.

Go Figure

Mon, 21 Jan 2002 03:19:31 GMT

I
am..

60 % dysfunctional

Beep Beep, move outta tha way, I drive the defunction bus, pimpin my oh so very fine...things.

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Sittin at Steph's

Sun, 20 Jan 2002 00:37:35 GMT

While Stephie gets ready I decided to take some of these lovely tests everyone has been takin...so yeah....here are the results

Confused

Mon, 31 Dec 2001 00:45:18 GMT

Ok, I know, I know, I have written in this for awhile, but really I don't think it matters. Whatever. I am just a crazy kid that doesn't really give a flying F*** anymore. Sometimes people are just so two faced it kills me to even think I could have ever cared about them in the first place....(not all of you out there, just some). I dunno, its like sometimes I just don't know where I stand with anyone, and maybe it is because sometimes I am so sensitive to things when I shouldn't be, but you would at least think that your best friend would have gotten ahold of you at least once after not seeing you for about a week and a half now...but oh well, its not like it matters. I HATE being such a nice person all the time, but I can't help it. It is just me. And being happy is another thing that is just me, when in reality half the time I am not. (I completely know this is jumbled, but I am on a vent session right now so deal!)
I feel so stuck in the middle of everything sometimes, and hate it, but when I am not I hate it even more. I guess we all look for that certain place, and once we think we find it, and it is torn away, it sucks BIG BALLS!! I can't stand not talking to some of the people I used to. When in the hell is the last time I hung out with Beth, or Gaby, or even freakin SHAWN, (no matter how much I hate him.) I miss everyone so much, I just don't know how we got torn apart. I just go from group to group b/c that is all I do now. Leigh Ann is with Tim, so she isn't able to hang out all the time like we used to...call it jealousy if you want, I don't even know what it is...but we were the best of friends, and now its like who is she and who am I? Gaby is with Justin and exploring new parts of being a teenager and I am soo happy for her if she is happy cause i can never stop loving her, its just I want to see her. Maybe some of it is my fault, and there is NO way I will deny anything on my part. BETH! WHERE HAVE YA BEEN? I dunno, its just i have been thinking about everything so much, and can't stand who I am now. I am just NOT happy now, and it feels DAMN good to share it, especially with the entire internet if everyone so desires to read my journal (DOUBTFUL). I dunno, I just need a shoulder to cry on, and can't seem to find it.
There is no way I am saying I haven't added to anything, its just I want things back to how they used to be, but sometimes, it seems like too much.